Thy Will Be Done…

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Choosing to reflect back on my personal story of tragedy, extreme loss, suffering and surrender is mainly to show you that self discovery, transformation and awakening can happen if your ready to let go.

I lost everything and I do mean everything. I lost my wife, she divorced me after 15 years of marriage; I lost my kids, she filed a restraining order against me so I couldn’t see them; I lost my house, ordered by the judge to go to my ex wife ~ I spent 10 years remodeling that house; I lost my possessions, I lived at a friends house and slept on the couch when I wasn’t crying on the couch; I lost my career, my boss had to let me go because of my severe depression; I lost my health, I had to be put on high blood pressure medication, the stress was killing me; I lost my finances, I had to cash out my 401k and go on employment insurance just to pay the child support and the divorce judgment, which I couldn’t afford, and I got most of my food from the food pantry.

I would tell people, friends, family, acquaintances about my story of loss and compare it to a naked man walking down the street with nothing, or a dead person that has nothing left but the weird part is he’s still alive. I would think that it might make me feel better, you know, to get it off my chest, to let it out. It never helped. I guess I was really only reminding myself of all of my suffering I was going through. So, in turn, I was really just reliving it over and over, again and again, every time I would tell my story.

I saw no light, no tunnel, no hope was in me for anything. The suffering got to be so intense… my heart was shattered like I had never felt or ever could imagine feeling. I turn to drugs, alcohol and tobacco… none of it helped. So I decided to try meditation and started reading spiritual books and listening to books on meditation and spirituality on CDs as often as I could. Sometimes I would play the CDs all night long even when I slept. I never imagined that turning inward, surrendering and letting go of my incessant thinking wood harbor answers for me. But I read, I listened, I studied spiritual teachers like… Dr. Wayne Dyer, Anthony Robbins, Deepak Chopra, Eckhart Tolle, Marianne Williamson,  Mark Thornton, Michael Bernard Beckwith, Emmet Fox, Louise Hay and so many more.

I practiced taking meditation even further and deeper… giving all my attention to my inner energy and putting my energy into a ball and like a balloon expanding it till I filled up the entire universe and then shrunk back again. Traveling the vast spaces of the Universe was interesting and fun to imagine. I would practice going into deep meditation everyday for an hour or more for about 3 years then something extraordinary happened. I woke up one morning on May 3rd 2009, it was around 4 a.m. in the morning I felt very different as I stood up I saw I was surrounded by red fog all around me… as I walked around my apartment the red cloud was still there. It lasted for a few minutes it seemed… then I felt a huge pressure and weight lift off my chest and it felt so good it was a sort of euphoria feeling… I felt blissful,  I felt so calm, so good and I was so empty but I couldn’t really think about it, or anything… I just felt complete inner peace, silence and stillness.

All the words in all the books I had been reading, all the affirmations I had been practicing, all the spiritual principles I had been studying all of a sudden had real meaning. I felt and I knew the truth of my source of energy in the light of my consciousness. I felt connected, I felt empowered by the light of my inner essence. I felt totally and completely connected to my Source within. I felt an inner peace and inner freedom that I never knew was possible in life… maybe in death or in heaven, but not in life. I was still in my body, but I still couldn’t think… I knew things but I couldn’t judge things… I felt one with things like I was whole with everything. I felt an inner emptiness, no more pressure at all, no more weight of emotion, no more thoughts or voices in my head, I was absolutely empty. Who, why, what had happened to me?

Well, its been almost four years since my awakening and personal transformation so I felt I should share this story with you. My inner peace is so perfect and tranquil… I adore living in a state of no thought and total inner freedom… I am so thankful grateful and appreciative for feeling goodness within me all the time… this is what my blog my book, my course and my life is all about. I love everybody and everything!

May God bless you…
Joyous journey inward,
Kurt 🙂

My Gift of Love to You…

In recognition of Global Love Day, May 1st… I accepted the Love Challenge posed by Global Love Project, Aine Belton founder, see… http://invivoplay.com/site/challenge_accepted/1922

…my love gift is a poem I wrote for a girl I had a strong crush on as a young boy and still do, oddly enough, to this day. I never asked her out on a date or became close friends, but I would still enjoy seeing her again someday.

…well, I wrote this poem for her back in my high school days, back around 1978. It’s my Global Love Project love gift to you…

Five Letters For My Love

The first letter is L,
The second letter is O,
The third letter is V,
The fourth letter is E,
The fifth letter is the one
that means the most to me,
The fifth letter is U!

Love always and forever,
Kurt 🙂

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Love exists only in the present ever changing moment and can only be expressed in the action of giving from your heart, essence and being as patience, kindness, forgiveness, humility, honesty, encouragement, joy, and especially attention and energy. Love is truly a verb. Namaste’

Eternally Connected…

How I adore my path, my practice and my journey, when I choose to focus my attention and energy joyously inward. I aggressively listen and focus attentively, steadfastly, and obediently on the sound and texture of my nose breaths in and out. I feel my belly moving in and out. The remainder of my attention and energy I direct inward to my inner being, my eternal energy, my solar plexus, my Source, and my center.

When I direct my conscious attention and energy into my eternal energy I know I’m creating Light. This is the Light of awakening and enlightenment. This Light is like no other… pure, whole, complete, and powerful. It is my true nature, my essence, and my truth.

When my inner Light fills me up to overflowing I know I have opened up the Present moment, the only moment that is real, that is constantly expanding, evolving, unfolding, and becoming. The gifts within are my Divine right to enjoy and give away… true compassion, kindness, patience, respectfulness, forgiveness, encouragement, and joy. I fully realize now true Love, unconditional Love is not a feeling, it is constantly becoming, unfolding in me; Love is truly a verb an action, a movement, a gift that comes within the Present. I am devoted to giving all of me to all of it.

I clearly see the true nature of Love overflowing from me in my expression and my passion. I see it reflected back at me in my perceptions. My mirror is my perception and it’s beyond what words can describe. I’m eternally grateful for connecting, communing, and living from my inner being in no thought and no judgement.

It’s so weird… It’s like I don’t believe in God anymore, I know God and the Perfection of the Source of all energy. I know with certainty I was created in the image of perfection in Light and I’m an expression of that Light and I must Let it shine, feel it, and know it in me. To not have thoughts, beliefs and faith… but wisdom, knowing and certainty… is being totally, Eternally Connected…

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“The greatest path in life is the path you lead others down before you.”
~ the philosophy of the Sage ~
Kurt Douglas Trevallion

 

My Passion and Purpose…

May 3rd, 2009, on my first born son Kollins’ 18th birthday, I went through a profound Spiritually awakening and transformation. Life after my awakening is simply amazing! Every moment is so full of  wonder, beauty, perfect peace and inner freedom. I feel so good inside always and in always. I live my life from my spirit and energy within. I discovered my heartfelt passion is to assist and guide others in this joyous spiritual journey inward. I adore sharing my message and would be very honored to serve you, guide you and light up your path to awakening and personal transformation. The journey is so great! Namaste’

My Journey to the Essence of Center

It’s a Joyful Journey to the Essence of Center within!

Welcome To Essence of Center! Namaste’

Want to awaken or strengthen your connection to your inner light?

Want to awaken or strengthen your connection to your inner light?

Kurt

Joyous Journey Inward…

 

Hi and Welcome! My name is Kurt Douglas Trevallion creator of “being bodhi”, a course, a path, a practice, and a journey of spiritual awakening and personal transformation. The purpose for this blog is to keep up-to-date those interested in more information about my course and my book… both of which are in the process of being finalized.

If you’re wanting or ready to connect and commune with your inner energy, your eternal being, your Source and your center my book, “The Greatest Asset In Life” ~ Connecting and Communing with Source Energy, will soon be available to purchase. It can be used as a guide book in conjunction with the “being bodhi” course or purchased separately.

My passion is to help others connect deeply with their own inner truth and inner light, to awaken and live life in a state of perfect peace, harmony and alignment with their true nature.